california fun...

*for some reason i didn't take many pictures on my camera, so i'll get more from margie's when i head back in a few weeks...*

We got to go to california for a little vacation before ed headed to the BORSTAR academy.   we got the weekend with him, then had to say goodbye :(  it's hard doing that with kids cause mack asks for him ALL the time.  and i am not cut out to be a single parent so i miss him too!  anyway, we were lucky enough to get to stay for another week with my in laws and my bro and have some fun... and even got a mini vacation to st. george mixed in there too!

mack had her first hair cut.  nothing too big cause i got scared. just wanted to get rid of her "tail" and get it to grow evenly:)... she mad dogged everyone the whole cut and e flirted with the girl cutting mack's hair:)

we got to hang out with dan and heather and cannon {aka the tank}.  love seeing those guys

it was pretty warm in ca so we busted out the kid pools. the kids loved grandpa play time at night outside.. esp when "chippy cheetos" were involved.  and mack was often caught cuddling in blankets with donald and daisy. she wouldn't go ANYWHERE without them and would ask if they could come in stores with us, or to the bathroom with her or on walks. she's nuts.

this trip {and the next few weeks most likely} have {will} be super emotional for me. it's hard to be without ed.  i am already horrible at being patient so my poor kids are getting my mean side more than needed.  i'm trying but so much has gone on in the last few weeks, i have hit my stress limit and i crumbled.

i was waiting till it the air cleared a bit {and for parties and vacations to be done so i didn't steal anyone's thunder}.  and most family already knows. but {this is not to get sympathy, more therapeutic for me} anyway, i'll keep it short and try not to be tmi...but i miscarried in February.  I didn't think it was too big of a deal, until the reactions i had to it.  sparing details, i ended up going to the ER in st. george to get checked out and had to get pills to stop bleeding i had fro over 2 weeks!  it was more annoying than anything and it was wearing on my already stressed and fragile state of mind.  the pills worked.. thankfully. and i am feeling much better now.  just kinda bummed that if i had been pregnant there would have been lots of cousins the same age {i would have made 4 for the marshalls}.  but it's all good.  with all the other stuff we have going on right now, it's probably best i'm not pregnant.

anyway, pray i survive the next 4 weeks.. {and ed too.. cause at least i'm not getting my butt kicked daily, like he is!}